Went back to work full time and continued the crazy thing called the "breastfeeding working mom". Something makes me suspect that things may have been a little easier before women's suffrage. Especially the breastfeeding and spending time with the kid. But what do I know? Being a SAHM right now is not really an option although I must admit that I have been surviving the last 2 months by the skin of my teeth. The daily 4hourly pumping makes the day pass faster by breaking it up into manageable portions but it also makes calls really painful. Imagine spending more than 24h away from your baby, hoping and praying that you'd be able to pump at a regular interval (which is not a given in my line of work) and spending time awake pumping (which would have been used for sleeping otherwise). Not that I am complaining, but it is just damn hard and I really take my hat off to all the women before me who have soldiered through it all. Right now, all I can do is know that weaning is in sight and take each day at a time.
A number of people have pointed out that I have lasted 4 months of breast feeding. It is an achievement in itself. In fact I do have aunts who are surprised that I still breastfeed. I'll admit that there are days, especially when I have to crawl up at 2am to pump, where I just wish I could forget about breastfeeding and get a night's worth of uninterrupted sleep. Again, as someone else pointed out, it's difficult to just walk away when you see your baby growing well and healthy. Plus the recent melamine scare in China makes the decision to continue a little easier.
So 3 hours a day, I sit plugged to the wall. That explains where all my crafting time goes to. But hey, I get a cuddly cutie patootie who smiles and laughs with me. What do I have to complain about?
